It seemed that my life couldn't get any worse since it was going to be Halloween soon. Well, I was very wrong. As I was hanging out at the community bbq, (might as well meet people) I accidentally bumped into someone. I started to apologize "Ack! I'm sorry i-" I paused, this person looked familiar "wait, you look familiar, do i know you?" Her eyes widened "Jason!?" i realized who she was, SHE WAS MY SISTERS WIFE! THE LAWYER WHO SCREWED ME OVER!! "Kuerva!? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE!?" I shouted, in a rage. she looked at me as if she was in pain. "Jason there is no reason for yelling calm down and we can talk elsewhere" CALM DOWN!? YOU EXILE ME FROM MY CHURCH, MAKE MY SISTER DISOWN ME, LEAVE AND NOW YOUR TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN!? YOU RUINED MY LIFE!!! She grabbed my shirt and tried to lead me away from the crowd. I was too angry to let her do that "LET ME GO YOU BI-" Before i could finish kuerva back handed me, hard. "CALM THE FUCK DOWN" she shouted "we clearly have much to talk about."
We got to her apartment around 12:00pm and apparently she lived in Maplewood Crest (who knew?). She shut the door and turned to face me. "ok no talk." she said as she sat down on her chair "what is it you think i've done." I was angry, but i managed to control my tone "well, you sued me, making me loose my job, turn my own sister against me, then you show up her when i'm finally trying to pick up the pieces. what is your problem!?" "I sued you because of the damage you did to my house before!" Kuerva shouted defensively. I knew what she was talking about, but a hollow attacked her home not me. "THAT WASNT ME!" I protested. Kuerva disregarded me and continued "I didn't turn her against you, you were so caught up in your "job" that you never paid attention to her and when she tried to ask you for help you not only were to busy but if i can quote you: "i don't care sis i've got to much on my plate to worry about you anymore" Wow I thought, she had no idea how wrong she was. "That was after she said that we were done as siblings." I explained to her "I tried to tell her otherwise but at that point i was hurt, and angry" Her expression became a scowl "YOU DIDNT CARE ABOUT HER FROM THAT POINT!!" She shouted. I got mad, she didn't know shit of what i felt. "YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I Yelled back. She looked at me, "Do you know how she was that night?" I wasn't listening, "I CARED FOR HER WHEN THEY DISOWNED HER! BEFORE YOU EVEN CAME AROUND!" She kept yelling, "THE DEPRESSION SHE SPIRALED INTO?..." I was still not listening " I TRUSTED YOU WITH HER!" I shouted. Kuerva was in tears now, "the cuts I had to bandage" that caught my attention "...wat?" I asked. Her tears were in full stream now "the emergency hospital trips i had to make" I was in shock "No...she...she wouldn't." I said shakily. Kuerva started to bawl "the grave i had to watch her buried in" I stood up "YOUR LYING!" I shouted. I couldn't believe it, not my big sister, not her.
Kuerva got up, and went to her bedroom and came back with a small black chest. "This is all I have left of her," she said as she opened the chest. Inside, it was full of pictures of me, Katie, and Kuerva. Before all of the chaos. I sat there and felt like curling up int a ball and crying. Kuerva dug through the chest, and handed me a white envelope. "she wrote this on the last day"
I picked up the letter. It was as follows:
Jason
i know you probably never want to see me or hear from me again but i just hope you'll one day
read this and know you never left my heart i always loved you baby brother you were always there for me and i will always remember that i look forward to seeing you again one day until then live free and be strong. I love you Jason
-Sis
My hand was shaking, this whole time we both just wanted to be forgiven by the other, and i was too afraid, too stupid to call her and make things right. tears streamed down my face. "Oh god... OH GOD WHY!? WHY HER!?" why had god abandoned her? in a rage i stood up, "WHY DID YOU LET HER DIE!? SHE HAD SO MUCH TO LIVE FOR!" Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva Kuerva ALIVE TIME AFTER TIME! I WAS THERE ALL THE TIMES BEFORE!!" I Looked at her "NO NOT YOU" I bawled "HIM" I pointed at the cross sculpture hanging on her wall. Kuerva's expression changed from mad to confused, "What?" she asked, dumbfounded. I looked away, "God controls our deaths, decides when we die" Kuerva looked as if she was going to cry again "He's a god of faith" She said "and she lost it". "No," i said shaking my head "I made Her lose it, and so he punished me." I sat down on her couch, wallowing in my greif. "I.. I tried to make time for her, I really did." I said Kuerva looked at me. "she just didn't see it." I started to cry again Why did this have to happen i mumbled to myself. Kuerva stood up, "look im going to the cookout stay here do what you will but i doubt she'd want us sulking and fighting" she opened the door.
"Your right" I said as i wiped the tears from my face. "besides, your the only family i have left" Kuerva stoped and turned to face me "what?" she asked "you're my sister-in-law right?" i stated. She smiled, "yeah, i guess so" i got up from the couch and walked with her back to the cook-out.
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